It’s bittersweet to be writing this, but I will no longer be updating this blog due to time constraints. During this season in my family’s life I need to use the margin I’ve carved out in my day to refocus and recharge.
Till we connect again some other day…
P.S. One of my biggest aspirations is to encourage other mom’s. I do so hope and pray I’ll be able to do that through whatever means possible. May God bless you and your family as you light up your part of the world! : )
I’ve been meaning to take time to sit down and write a little about being in the hospital with Gwyneth during her first 10 days of life.
It was an emotional experience, struggling to make the ongoing decision to trust Gwyn’s life into God’s hands or to worry and mentally rush ahead to how I would handle all the ‘what if’s’.
Truthfully I did both, but learned I couldn’t do both simultaneously.
Only during times of completely trusting was I able to find peace, even if I didn’t like the situation.
Days leading up to her birth I felt God bringing to mind the concept of “open hands”, to not tightly hold onto people and how I want everything to be, which is what I’m best at! But to hold my baby girl with open hands and entrust her fully to Him.
Sure enough I came back to this concept repeatedly while at the hospital and am still having to choose to trust my children’s lives to the One who gave them, knowing He is good, faithful, and in control.
I still have my struggles with fear, I also know others go through so much worse or it seems like everything turns out wrong for them.
All I know is when I told God I trusted His choice because I trusted in His supreme love for us I found peace.
I pray you too can come to a place of rest by finding the peace He has specifically for you, regardless of what circumstances you find yourself wrestling with.
I read this from I Take Joy and loved it so I wrote it down.
“Whatever you have cherished inside is what will flow out. When you are squeezed you will spill out what is in your heart. So it is essential to understand, what you are pouring in will surely spill out in your words, your eyes, your attitudes, your actions. Filling the inside of our souls with beauty, goodness, humility, faith, and love of Christ must be intentional so that there will be substance of his life to spill over to others.” – Sally Clarkson
This also served as an important reminder to be intentional with my kids in what I’m pouring into them, what they’re observing from me, or taking in through TV & other way. To do my best to share God’s goodness, truth, and beauty in the middle our imperfect, sometimes crazy 3 ring circus days. We can walk, always, in His Light.
P.S. I’m doing this blogging thing on my phone while my laptop is unusable so excuse any extra mistakes.